I’ve fooled around with boys in my past. I’ve done things that I wasn’t suppose to be doing at a young age. I’ve felt hurt, rejected, used, broken and dirty. I really haven’t gone too far but I’ve gone far enough to know that it just wasn’t worth it. I’ve gone far enough to feel worthless and empty, yearning for someone to care and love me. Yearning for that feeling of happiness and self-worth to return. Yearning for love, that’s for sure. God has used my experiences to shape me, truly from the inside out.
This year I’ve realized my self-worth, not only as a woman but as one of God’s children, one of the Lord’s daughters. The Lord showed me exactly how much I mean to Him and how worthless it was for me to indulge in meaningless acts of sexual desires. It’s no conquincidence that many of us feel dirty and gross after any sexual activity, more so when it’s between two individuals who are unmarried.
God has shown me how to respect the eyes of those around me. I try to dress conservatively and covered, not only because of personal preference but because of modesty. My heart is more important than my physical features/appearance. God showed me that I belong to one person, being the person who I will marry one day (if I ever do) and that I shouldn’t share the things I would with my husband to other males out there. But most importantly, God showed me my complete worth in Him. He gave me that understanding that He created me and knows me the very best. That HE KNOWS me so well. He knows my thoughts, he knows when I sleep, He knows when I’m upset and miserable, He knows when I care for others, He knows when I don’t show love, He knows even where I’ll be 10 years from now. He knows ME. And He LOVES what He has made.
Since He LOVES me so greatly, it’s also my job to respect that and LOVE me too.
The Lord showed me just how valuable my body is. He knew that indulging in sexual acts wouldn’t fulfill me as much as He would. And he KNEW how broken myself, and many others, would feel once we engaged in it when we weren’t suppose to.
I just want you to know that the Lord loves you, and wants to protect you. He is mesmerized by your heart and who YOU are. Take care of yourself.
Know that HIS divine LOVE will carry you through your struggles, temptation and feelings of worthlessness. Hold on tight. He LOVES what He has MADE!
Father God, i just want to thank you for all of your children, young and old. I pray that you help us to see how worthy we are to You and how much you care for our well-being. Please forgive us for the time we have neglected Your discipline and allow our hearts to learn how to love Your discipline. Thank you for the experiences we have all had in our lives, whether we know you or not. Thank you that you use it for Your good. Help us to be strong in our daily walk and remember the God we serve and belong to. Help us to stay pure and loving to our friends, companions and strangers we come across. Thank you for allowing Your son, Jesus Christ, to die for all of our sins, past or present. Most importantly help us to love you more and more with all of our HEART, STRENGTH, SOUL and BODY! Let us be victorious for you, all of our days. Thank you for loving us, always.
In Jesus’ name,