I will make this short and sweet.
For the past 5-6 years I was basically “obsessed” (not literally…I just liked in so much) with this guy. We dated, we broke up, we stayed friends, and saw each other frequently, often and then it slowly, gradually became occasionally and then disintegrated to rarely/never. Still, he was the only guy I ever wanted, and spent a lot of tears and had such a poor, sad, broken, confused, miserable heart because of the years that dragged on. 
After a while, I had enough and just couldn’t take it. I couldn’t take that I became literally nothing to him when before I meant a whole lot. I hated how sad I was, and how much I so often put myself down. One night I prayed, and laid my broken heart/spirit at the feet of Jesus.
It took some time, but now, a few months from then I AM SET FREE.
I just saw pictures of him, and his new girlfriend on a social network and felt nothing but contentment, happiness, gratefulness and much more.

I am no longer broken or hurt. My heart isn’t sad, when I see that he’s moved on. Jesus healed the biggest thing that was the most closest to my heart. And now, I am whole again. I’m OKAY. I am free!

I am, indeed set free from something that held such a bondage on me, because I let it.
I AM FREE!!!!!
AMEN!  

Thank you Jesus so much.
Ugh, THANK YOU.  
It was not I but He.

I’ve fooled around with boys in my past. I’ve done things that I wasn’t suppose to be doing at a young age. I’ve felt hurt, rejected, used, broken and dirty. I really haven’t gone too far but I’ve gone far enough to know that it just wasn’t worth it. I’ve gone far enough to feel worthless and empty, yearning for someone to care and love me. Yearning for that feeling of happiness and self-worth to return. Yearning for love, that’s for sure. God has used my experiences to shape me, truly from the inside out.

This year I’ve realized my self-worth, not only as a woman but as one of God’s children, one of the Lord’s daughters. The Lord showed me exactly how much I mean to Him and how worthless it was for me to indulge in meaningless acts of sexual desires. It’s no conquincidence that many of us feel dirty and gross after any sexual activity, more so when it’s between two individuals who are unmarried. 
God has shown me how to respect the eyes of those around me. I try to dress conservatively and covered, not only because of personal preference but because of modesty. My heart is more important than my physical features/appearance. God showed me that I belong to one person, being the person who I will marry one day (if I ever do) and that I shouldn’t share the things I would with my husband to other males out there. But most importantly, God showed me my complete worth in Him. He gave me that understanding that He created me and knows me the very best. That HE KNOWS me so well. He knows my thoughts, he knows when I sleep, He knows when I’m upset and miserable, He knows when I care for others, He knows when I don’t show love, He knows even where I’ll be 10 years from now. He knows ME. And He LOVES what He has made.
Since He LOVES me so greatly, it’s also my job to respect that and LOVE me too.
The Lord showed me just how valuable my body is. He knew that indulging in sexual acts wouldn’t fulfill me as much as He would. And he KNEW how broken myself, and many others, would feel once we engaged in it when we weren’t suppose to.
I just want you to know that the Lord loves you, and wants to protect you. He is mesmerized by your heart and who YOU are. Take care of yourself. 

Know that HIS divine LOVE will carry you through your struggles, temptation and feelings of worthlessness. Hold on tight. He LOVES what He has MADE!   

Father God, i just want to thank you for all of your children, young and old. I pray that you help us to see how worthy we are to You and how much you care for our well-being. Please forgive us for the time we have neglected Your discipline and allow our hearts to learn how to love Your discipline. Thank you for the experiences we have all had in our lives, whether we know you or not. Thank you that you use it for Your good. Help us to be strong in our daily walk and remember the God we serve and belong to. Help us to stay pure and loving to our friends, companions and strangers we come across. Thank you for allowing Your son, Jesus Christ, to die for all of our sins, past or present. Most importantly help us to love you more and more with all of our HEART, STRENGTH, SOUL and BODY! Let us be victorious for you, all of our days. Thank you for loving us, always.
In Jesus’ name,

AMEN. 

I am just so flustered.
My mind is confused and wondering to various conclusions.
No one cares to engage in meaningful conversations anymore.
No one cares to care or love anymore.
No one enjoys love, and the advice and outreach of others who actually care.

Everyone wants love but as soon as love approaches them, wholeheartedly, it’s rejected.
I don’t understand. 
Ignorance floods our bodies. 
It’s almost like we lack peace, joy and happiness now a days. 
We indulge in hate, violence, misery and loneliness. 
This generation is ever so broken, and the only cure is love. 
True love. 
I know it’s still alive and it’s just waiting for us to call upon it.
Embrace it.
Long for it.
Love it. 

It’s funny because the only commandment the Lord gave us is to love. To love Him and to love others but the truth is blinded, even in the eyes of those who believe. 
Jesus loved those on earth when he was on it. He loved those who were unloved. He loves us now, even when we don’t love him. He even died for us. He died for the mistakes we’ve made, and will make. He died for all the bad in us, only EVER wanting to replace it with good. 
His everlasting love will stand FOREVER. 
God knew what we needed from the beginning and now we have it, we HAVE the love of the Father, Jesus Christ.
And no one seems to want it anymore.

But I do, I want it.
I want to feel the love of God, and experience it even more so than I currently have. 
It’s genuine.
He’s the only true joy, love, peace and happiness I’ve ever experienced in my life.
He’s all I will ever need. 
All I ever need to do is spread is love.
Yes, it is one of the hardest things to do sometimes.
Yes, I will mess up, I will fall-short of His glory and somedays, I may not even care to love myself. 
But love should be all of our anthems. Even if we mess up, 
You can’t badger anyone for trying. 

(Source: godisthemovement)

Lately, I’ve learned so much about the importance of staying pure, being careful to keep your body to yourself, and no other (a part from God, that is). For majority of my life, I’ve abstained from sex but it doesn’t mean that I’ve been perfect, nor does it mean that I’ve been completely pure either. But God really showed me, how IMPORTANT it is to keep yourself, a virgin, until marriage. If you want, read 1st Corinthians 7. 
I’ve also wondered why my friends, whom were dating, got so caught up in their relationship and the individual they’re with. I began to feel unimportant and had hateful thoughts towards my friends. With all that hatefulness towards the people I once knew as “friends”…nonetheless, a “bestfriend” I really needed more understanding as to why I was the “forgotten one” and why they were SO attached to their partner.
I soon realized that if you are in a relationship and you have shared your body and sexual things with someone whether you are dating or not, you literally have a bond with them. Like the bible says, you become “one”. I found this true, even hearing it from one of my closest friends. You begin to want to be with them every second of everyday, your relationship with God has probably been thrown away in a ditch and you forget about everyone you once cared so much about. Why? Because you are no longer an individual. You are now unified.

You see, God intended us to become literally ONE with one person. And sadly, a lot of people in this generation and many more have fast-forwarded that special bond with someone way too early in their life. They ran the mile when they were only suppose to walk it out. And now, you can never “undo” what you did and how you’ve lost your virginity. But, if you find the will of wanting to do so within yourself, God will give you strength to stay pure and committed to Him until you get married.
If you are single, stay single. It is better to be single than with someone unless God plans otherwise. And if you’re single, devote all your time to being one with God and our Savior because as soon as you have a boyfriend or moreso a husband or a girlfriend or wife, you can never fully devote your entire self to God anymore because your priorities begin to change.  

So, I encourage all of my followers to stay pure. Enjoy and delight in the Lord and love every minute of it. Learn to love God’s discipline and be obedient to His Word. Because God knows best, He really does. And your body belongs only to Him. So, stay pure and be mindful of the actions you commit and the way you live your life. He intended for each and everyone of us to have a SPECIAL really, really SPECIAL, loving and sooooo romantic relationship with just one SPECIAL, lovely person.

Don’t settle. Be patient.

Pray for that person you’ll possibly one day fall in love with. Pray that they’ll stay pure too. And never lose hope or think that you’re missing out because you don’t have someone to love or provide you with the sinful pleasures we all desire.
KEEP CALM, AND KEEP PURITY ON! 

- “An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord’s work and thinking how to please Him. But an married man has to think about his earthly responsibilities and how to please his wife. His interests are divided. In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit. But a married woman has to think about her earthly responsibilities and how to please her husband.” 1st Cor. 7:32-34  

So, recently I’ve been taking it easy. Somedays dwelling in sadness, and others, being content with whatever situation I’m in. - Either or, I’m still alive and still examining and analyzing specific and interesting parts of life. Since I’ve taken the year “off” to sort things out and understand myself a little better, I’ve gotten insight on some of my interests and desires. I’ve learned a few things about myself just in the past two months of “chillin” around. But the thing that have hit me the most is the fact that I can’t find completely rest and find peace where I am in my life right now. I mean, I’m saving money which is terrific but God may now be guiding me to where I need to place my money towards right now. The thing is, I’m not actually sure if where I think He wants me is where I’m actually suppose to go/be in the near future. 
With all the desires and interests I now have, I believe that I have a PERFECT opportunity to fulfill all of them! I really do. I really do believe that God has placed out all of what I’ve thought about and wanted in the past 2 months and has presented me with a place to perform then! I mean, what are the chances that that’d happen, if it WASN’T the plan of God….but then again, this isn’t the first time I’ve *thought* and *knew* where God wanted me to go. The only difference is that the FIRST time, I got rejected and moreso realized that that really wasn’t what God had in store for me. I mean, how did I lead myself in the wrong path? How did I think something so wrong was “so right”? How did I not know and follow in the footsteps as to where God wanted me to be? How?…

Now, I’m scared, sort of. I think that I might fall into that trap again. I don’t want uncertainty to flood my insides again and blind my vision. I don’t want to become doubtful and I don’t want to lead myself ever again into that mistaken vision of my future. I made a mistake..that was very foolish of me.  

I really don’t know what to think as of right now. I just need to trust in GOD! And not on my own understanding, AMEN!? Amen.  

I just don’t know what to do! I feel so stressed and annoyed at everything right now. I need to figure out my life and what I want to do for next year but honestly, I just don’t know. There’s a Christian school I want to go to but it’s 44 hours away from where I live right now. Which means I would have to live on campus and be away from my family for four years in order to study Counseling. I’m not sure where I want to build my home…here or there/somewhere else. It would be so easy to build a home at my actually home with my family since we’d be moving soon, I’d be able to pay for my tuition because it wouldn’t be so expensive, I’d have a car, have a stabled job (kind of) and I’d get to stay home where my church family and my family are. If I move out and go to a school abroad I’d have to save money, try to get around by bus now a days, which is so difficult because it conflicts with my church services, try to find ways to finance things and lose the opportunity to make a home at home. If that makes any sense at all. 

This sucks and I really don’t want to “stay home” for my studies but it is so much more securing and kind of comforting knowing that I won’t need to worry. I mean, does it REALLY matter what school I go to study Counseling? The biggest problem is that all the Christian schools I want to go to are SO far and out of reach. It’s not like I would be able to commute to the one’s I long to go to.

I just don’t know. It’s annoying and so frustrating. I want to leave though…but that would mean I wouldn’t be able to have the things I want NOW while I’m at home, saving money. 

And the biggest thing that is stopping me from living abroad is the fact that I know that I just can’t afford it. My parents can’t and I most certainly cannot either. Some people are just so fortunate to live on campus, for those who do…you are very blessed. But this doesn’t mean that God won’t/cannot bless me with the same opportunity as well…and I know that.

I believe that what a guy wants, he gets…for the most part. If he likes a girl, he will be sure to pick her off her feet and make him his before anyone else does. But what truly makes us girls fall for them? Is it just the simple act of charm-fulness?

No, but really? Is it really the “charm”? Or is it more than what meets the eye? I mean, I’ve fallen for guys before but what makes us girls make them get us so easily? Why do we let them have their chance right when they want it? Should we play hard to get AKA “guarding your heart” like God tells us to? But if we do that we probably will fear that we’d lose them so quickly by acting so “uninterested”.

Anyways, I truly believe that if a guy really wants a girl he’d do his very best to have her and if a guy doesn’t try, well it’s quite possible to say that he just might not be “that into you”…Well, I know how that feels!

If you’re one of those girls who have yet to find the “perfect” boyfriend or the “he-is-sooo-into-me” kinda of guy, don’t lose heart! God has someone for you. Maybe you just need to make yourself become the best person you can be for him and God. Maybe you need to prepare yourself, especially when it comes to guarding your heart (I know I need to work on that too). But never be in a rush to find the right “boyfriend” or soulmate. I think it’s best to just continue observing your friends relationships and picking out what you would like and dislike your own relationship to be and never forget to continue perfecting yourself for that relationship. It is always worth pleasing God especially when in a relationship 100% of the time rather than getting so caught up in a relationship with someone else. :) The only relationship that should truly matter the VERY most is the one you have with Jesus Christ. If that isn’t perfected or isn’t at it’s peek, then all else will fall short of his glory and honor. 

But this is just my personal opinion. :)